Thursday, May 31, 2012

The darker side of life

Like most of us women, I too, suffer from the Disease of Comparison!  It's an ugly, ugly disease that leaves you lifeless and defeated and robbed of ALL joy and contentment! 

Yesterday was an especially high "disease" day for me.  I didn't know just how bad it was until I got a phone call from a dear, sweet friend and sister in Christ.  Our conversation was going along swimmingly and all of a sudden it happened!  TEARS!  I did not realize just how deep I had stuffed all the doubt, the fear, the LIES of comparison until they welled up, came to the surface and WOOSH!  An out-pouring of emotion!
((and with all my heart, I believe that phone call was divinely appointed!))

{Please bare with me if this seems a bit winding and all over the place.}

Here's the short of it.  I have weight (head) issues.  I was over weight as a child and called LOTS of names by a family member with whom I sought love and acceptance from for many years.  When I was 14, I lost all that extra weight and went from a size 14 to a size 5.  But somehow, I never really "saw it".  I continued to compare myself to my friends.. I never felt like I was "as thin as they were".  Therefore, I never had contentment and joy! My soul never found rest.
I never saw what everyone else saw... ME!

Fast forward 3 kids later and a 12 year battle with thyroid issues (hypo) and I find myself in a similar boat.  I am battling my weight and not feeling "good enough".  I have lost sight of the positive changes and weight loss and success I am having, and have begun focusing on all the lies Satan is telling me.  That once again,

See, I believe that one of the reasons I still fight this battle is because I have not yet learned the lesson GOD is trying to teach me!  That I AM ENOUGH!!  HE created me!  Therefore, I am perfect JUST AS I AM!  It's a twisted kind of freeing knowing what the lesson is!  But it's soo frustrating not believing His truth!

My friend reminded me last night that my worth does not come from circumstance, or the way I look, or my successes or my failures... My WORTH comes from the fact that I am the daughter of the King!  My worth comes from HIS LOVE for ME!
I know all of this!  I do!  It's just that I don't know how to make my heart believe what my head already knows!

This morning I woke up with, still, a heavy heart.  So I thought I'd peruse Proverbs 31 and see what kind of biblical truth I could focus on today.


My God never ever fails me!!  EVER!!

People, I cannot make this stuff up!!

THIS was the devotional YESTERDAY!!  (you know... the day I was going thru ALL THIS STRUGGLE!!)


Daily Devotion for May 30, 2012 Measuring Up

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"When they measure themselves by themselves and compare themselves with themselves, they are not wise." 2 Corinthians 10:12b (NIV)

Do you ever compare yourself to other women and feel like you don't quite measure up? Maybe you feel like you're not as smart, pretty, fun, organized or as good at _______ as they are.

It is so easy to think that if we had more or knew more, we'd be secure. But the truth is, even people who "have it all" still struggle with feelings of insecurity. The Bible opens with the story of a woman who had everything but it still wasn't enough (Genesis 2).

God had established Eve's worth as His child and the crown of His creation. He also gave Eve every woman's desire: intimacy, beauty, security, significance, and purpose. Yet Satan conjured up feelings of insecurity by getting Eve to take her eyes off what she had and focus on what she didn't have.

Boy, can I relate. Like Eve, I've heard Satan's whispers telling me I'm not all I could be — or should be. One day I was reading her story in Genesis 2 and I noticed that his questions and suggestions were intended to plant seeds of doubt in Eve's heart. He wanted her to doubt God and herself.

The enemy's whispers tempted Eve to try to "be" more and "have" more by seeking significance apart from God's provision. He convinced her something was missing in her life and that the forbidden fruit would make her be "like God."

It was a foolish comparison, but all comparisons are. Yet don't we do it all the time? If only I was like her...if only I had a house like hers, a husband like hers, a job like hers...if only my children behaved like hers...If only _______, then I'd feel significant, satisfied and secure.

In today's key verse, Paul warns us that those who "measure themselves by themselves, and compare themselves with themselves, are not wise" (2 Cor. 10:12 NIV). Comparison will always leave us feeling like we don't measure up. We can try to do more and be more, yet it's never enough.
If only Eve had focused on who she was and what she had as a child of God. If only we could too.
Yet Satan wants us to focus on our flaws and feelings of inadequacy, then exhaust our energy figuring out how to hide them. But we don't have to go along with his schemes. Instead we need to equip ourselves to recognize his lies, refute his temptations with truth, and focus on God's acceptance, security, and significance. Then we can thank God for His provision and His promises that remind us of who we are in Him:

I am accepted...
Ephesians 1:3-8 I have been chosen by God and adopted as His child.
Colossians 1:13-14 I have been redeemed and forgiven of all my sins.
Colossians 2:9-10 I am complete in Christ.

I am secure...
Romans 8:28 I am assured that God works for my good in all circumstances.
Romans 8:31-39 I am free from condemnation. I can't be separated from God's love.
Philippians1:6 I am confident God will complete the good work He started in me.

I am significant...
Ephesians 2:10 I am God's workmanship.
Ephesians 3:12 I may approach God with freedom and confidence.
Philippians 4:13 I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.
Author and psychologist, Dr. Neil T. Anderson says, "The more you reaffirm who you are in Christ, the more your behavior (and beliefs) will begin to reflect your true identity!"

So, the next time we're tempted to use the measuring stick of comparison - let's commit to measure UP by focusing upward on Christ and who we are in HIM!

Lord, thank You that in Christ I'm chosen, holy, and dearly loved. When I'm tempted to measure up according to the world's standards or my foolish comparisons, help me recognize Satan's lies, refuse his temptations and rely on your truth about me instead. Remind me that such confidence as this is mine through Christ—not that I am competent in myself to claim anything for myself, but competence comes from You. In Jesus' name, Amen. (Colossians 3:12; 1 Peter 5:9; 2 Corinthians 3:4-5)

{WELCOME Encouragement for Today Readers & Online Study Friends!!}

In my P31 Encouragement for Today devotion, I posed the question… Do you ever feel like you don’t measure up? 

And now I want us to dig a little deeper. Have you ever stopped to ask,  “Who is saying these things? Who is causing me to doubt myself? Is it me? Has something from my past led me to believe this? Or is it the enemy of my soul disguising his voice as my own?”

It is crucial for us to realize we have an enemy. Satan is the father of lies, and there is no truth in him (John 8:44). And he loves when we believe his deception and fall into the distraction of feeling inadequate and insecure. {It’s a huge distraction!}
The meaning of the word lie is “a falsehood with the intent to deceive.” Satan intends to deceive us and he does so by getting us to take our eyes off of who we are in Christ and focus on our flaws. That way we’ll spend our days figuring out how we can hide them. It’s exactly what he did with Eve:

“Then the eyes of both [Adam and Eve] were opened, and they realized they were naked; so they sewed fig leaves together and made coverings for themselves.
Then the man and his wife heard the sound of the Lord God as he was walking in the garden in the cool of the day, and they hid from the Lord God among the trees of the garden. But the Lord God called to the man, ‘Where are you?’
He answered, ‘I heard you in the garden, and I was afraid because I was naked; so I hid.’” (Gen. 3:7–11)

In response, God asked who told them they were naked. In other words, “Who told you that something is wrong with you?” By asking this, God made sure they knew someone was casting shame on them—and it wasn’t Him.
The enemy whispered lies into their hearts, causing them to move away from Him and from each other.
Satan’s intent is the same for you and me as it was for Eve, but we don’t have to go along with him. Instead we can refute his lies and temptations with truth. If we have put our trust in Christ as our Savior, we can stand on the promises of who we are in Him.
When you’re tempted to measure up today, focus “up” instead and remember Whose you are and who you are


It completely moved me to tears to read this!  It was confirmation to me that GOD IS WITH ME! He knows what I am going thru!  He has never left my side!  If I would just "BE STILL AND KNOW" that He is God... I would feel His presence and His arms around me!  Just as a father holds his child when her heart is aching.. HE IS HOLDING ME!  Just as He always has!

And THAT, my friends, sits well with my soul!

Thank you for sharing this part of my life with me.


Sunday, May 27, 2012

Broad stripes and Bright stars

I have always had a love affair with the American Flag! ~Always~

When I was in 1st grade, I remember my teacher, Mrs. Landry, telling my mother something was "wrong" with me!  Why? Because I cried during the Star Spangled Banner.
(blah, blah,blah.. what can I say.. I have always had a very vivid imagination!)

So, in honor of Memorial Day and Independence Day, I made my own American Flag to hang proudly in my Family Room.


Big Daddy found a "half pallet" for me and I knew IMMEDIATELY I was going to use it for this purpose.

First, I spray painted the front and sides white.

Then I got just regular ol' craft acrylic paint in PRIMARY BLUE to make my backdrop for the stars.
I got lucky here because the nails were perfectly centered so I had an automatic guide!  {and if you know me even a smidge, you know the word "lucky" is seldom used  when describing or referencing myself ;)}


Then I painted my LIPSTICK RED stripes.  
(2 coats)

I couldn't find a sponge, but I did find a piece of Scotch brite hanging around so I used it as my star.

('cause I was not ABOUT to get in my car and go to the store to get a sponge in the middle of my project!!)
I like that it's kinda beachy looking too!

Ok.. so if you've counted the stars, which I KNOW you have,(don'chu lie.. you know you have! heehee) 
I didn't actually have enough space for all 50 states.  So just pick your favorite 40 and those are the one's being represented!
(only kidding... I don't have 13 stripes either, but it's a gesture people!  lol)

I love it!  But I think I'd love it even more if it were old looking... You know... Had a little LIFE in it!

Time to break out the sand paper!  
Oh yeaaaaaah babyy!!
(savin that for the reveal)


Next, you're gonna need to hang it.  This thing weighs 23 lbs, so a little tooth hanger ain't gonna do the trick.  You have to pull out the big guns!  Eye hooks (or D rings) and picture wire.


It's EXACTLY the way I pictured it! 



And now, in honor of Mrs. Landry, I sing for you....

The Star Spangled Banner 
Oh, say can you see by the dawn's early light
What so proudly we hailed at the twilight's last gleaming?
Whose broad stripes and bright stars thru the perilous fight,
O'er the ramparts we watched were so gallantly streaming?
And the rocket's red glare, the bombs bursting in air,
Gave proof through the night that our flag was still there.
Oh, say does that star-spangled banner yet wave
O'er the land of the free and the home of the brave!


 Let us not forget those who fight selflessly for OUR freedom every day!  
For those who lay down their lives and sacrifice for OUR freedom every day! 
Let us keep them safely in our hearts where prayer is ever present!

~Be blessed my friends~


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Tip Junkie handmade projects

Friday, May 25, 2012

Creating and reCreating

Man!  It has been forever and a day since I've blogged! SO sorry about that! Life has had me preoccupied, but I managed to wiggle my out for a bit and blog this post.  I am elated that you're here!  :)

Ok, so remember waaaay back when, when I asked for your help with my front room??  

Well, like I said "life" has had me preoccupied so not too much has changed, but I have changed SOME things. (still not the light I want :\ bare with me)

So, I found this SUPER cool hounds tooth wrapping paper that I just HAD to have!  Wasn't sure what I was going to do with it, but I knew I wanted it for this room.  (OH, you thought I'd wrap gifts with it?? Silly you! Don't you know me by now.)

I'm really liking it on the TOP of the table!!  So what I'm thinking is, having a piece of glass cut and having it under the glass!  What a WOW statement!!

See... still that same ol' light that is totally wrong for this room! 
aaannnndd  it completely covers up my super fun sun burst mirror!


I still haven't found that "perfect" fabric for my chairs either... So I was thinking of maybe painting the fabric!  I have seen of really great transformations on Pinterest  here and here
I figure if it's flop... who cares!  It's not like I love the current fabric any how.  No love lost. 

 Now, onto {or is it INTO?? Hmm...} the FAMILY ROOM.  This room has changed a gazillion times, but I am feeling pretty settled with it now, so I think it has "staying power"  ;)
(( and if you know me, that's a pretty big deal))

I still need an area rug!  I did use one I had for a while, but it wasn't large enough and it drove me batty!  So out it went~ 

My style is what I call 

Traditional EcLeCtIc.

This sweet picture, of my middle chicken and baby chicken, is on my coffee table right in front of where I reign sit so I can see it every day!  It was strategically placed there because 95% of the time, these two are at each others throats!  THIS helps me remember there really is A LOT of love between them.  
(even if they don't always show it)

How'd ya like my clever cord cover?!  It's really a chandy cover, but dual purpose is my middle name!!  

My sweet Weezie is just too lazy tired to move for my picture.

I like quirky.. so my ELEVATOR sign is next to the stairs! ~ A little fun with sarcasm~

Opposite view... entering the front door.

My FAMILY wall.

The hanger is a "Kristy Original" Pottery Barn knock off  :)  
Cost: $12 


Besides, I have a tattoo to prove it!!

Enter now.... The eat-in kitchen area.

Meet Besty.  My sweet cow!  I AH.DORE her!!

And YES!  That IS an antique sewing table top on my table! I LOVE IT! The drawers are great for storage! One is for Big Daddy's junk and the other is for the sets and sets of headphones that seem to float around the house resting on every surface they can find! (arrgg)

I collect lots of kitchy things and Salt and Pepper shakers are one of them :)

A view from the kitchen.

Crown molding is next on the list!


Remember our big kitchen reveal ??

Well, I just found these fun botanical prints (on clearance at TJMaxx for $4.00 each, thankyouverymuch!) to add to the space and thought I'd share.  I love how it pulls the whole sink area together!!


This cow dish made me laugh when I saw it at a garage sale.. so...  I bought her! I live with the philosophy 
~~however, Big Daddy thinks TOO many things bring me joy!  ;) haha.~~


Welcome to our half bath.  Sit, stay a while.... Umm..On second thought.. ;)

I LOVE this sea fan I snagged at TJMaxx for a whopping $7.99!!  I think it totally makes the bathroom!

We got this pedestal sink from Craig's list for $40!
It pays to shop second hand!! :)


I have a thing for birds from the south, in case you missed it.


We continued the color onto the ceiling to create a larger/taller space.  Cause let's face it... half baths are tiny!

Hope you enjoyed the little tour of "Casa de los Pollos"!

That means "The House of Chickens"
... which will be in my next post...
Til then.... Adios!!


Saturday, May 12, 2012

You know.. The Piece of Furniture that has drawers

So every one knows that this is called a Chest of Drawers. 
I mean it's pretty self explanatory...  It is a chest (a piece of furniture that houses items) and it has drawers that fit in it's frame.  It makes sense, right?? 


I'm going to tell you a story.  A true story.  One that you will read, laugh and shake your head.
And I'm ok with that. 

In 1999, our family moved from Louisiana to Minnesota.  {It was a feat, let me tell ya...  But since it has nothing to do with my story, I'll spare ya!}

 {{ But it is key to note that we are from Louisiana and we have been known to drop letters from words or replace them with other letters to make a different sound, but they still mean the same thing!  And we all know wha'chall are talkin about bu-cause we're all from the same place.}}

Ok.. fast forward to MN..
We found it easiest and fastest if I stayed in the apartment and directed where things went rather than me being in the truck grabbing a load, while the men stood there waiting on me to find out where to put things.
And since you all should know by now that my ever-so-lovingly nickname is THE QUEEN.. It was a job I was meant for and didn't complain when it was appointed to me~ ;)

Fast forward to the last bedroom being brought up from U Haul into the apartment.....
As I directed a particular piece of furniture to be placed in this particular spot,  my husband stops... 
sets it down... 
looks at me... 
and says 

"What's this called?"

Me, ever so frankly:  "A Chester drawer"

Hubs: "OH, you mean a CHEST OF DRAWERS?!"

{At this point I can only imagine the look on my face as I came to realize that I, the Queen, have called this piece of furniture THE WRONG FLIPPIN NAME my en.tire. life!!  -- Not to mention the ENTIRE DAY IN FRONT OF EVERY NORTHERNER THERE TO HELP US!! 

As I stood there wide-eyed, stoic and thinking  "Oh dear God, just shoot me now!"  My darling husbands says.... 

 "Who the hell is Chester, anyway!?"


True story, y'all!